37 Adolescence

The first year in St Mary’s flew by and in no time, I was in the 9th Standard, Division A in the main School Building. As I mentioned earlier, I was very competitive and wanted to score high marks and stand first in my class, so here I was amidst fellow classmates who were equally brilliant and ambitious! My bench mate was Godfrey Rodrigues who was a very quiet but an outstanding student, very studious and with a very neat handwriting.
Adolescence hit me very hard and all my hormones seemed to be at full play! Adolescence does strange things anyway and in my case I suffered several of its effects – I became very self-conscious and worried unduly about the impression that I had on other people. I was ambitious but I began procrastinating on daily tasks like regular study hours and homework. The desire to study regularly was there, but I somehow perked up only before the terminal exams.
I developed a phobia for Maths and this put me at a disadvantage whilst competing for high grades. I was very good in subjects like English, French and Social Studies but the Sciences left me cold. I recall preparing hard for the first terminals but fell ill with the flu just before the exams, missed several of the papers; and was disqualified from being ranked at the end of the Term. This was a great disappointment and I really felt that I had started on the wrong foot that year!
Adolescence also changed my reading tastes – from the books of Enid Blyton and Frank Richards, I graduated to the crime novels of Perry Mason and James Hadley Chase. I also developed mild crushes with a couple of our teachers, though solely in my imagination! Another important phase of my development was increasing wanderlust – the desire to travel alone during Diwali holidays as well as the Summer Vacation. Hence I started making regular forays to Cochin and later to Calcutta: these two cities fascinated me no end!
Book collecting and book buying was an activity that I cultivated during my adolescence – whichever city I visited, I would visit the nearest book shop, and if funds permitted buy some books! This interest continues even today and I have managed to accumulate a very large quantity of books in my house!





